Cleansing

The time has come for you to lip sync for your LIFE! lol! I kid, I kid. :)

The time has come for me to clean out my life once again. Just as we clean when the different seasons make an appearance, it's a good idea to clean out your life sometimes as well. Whether it's cleaning out your mind and letting go of old hurts, pains and emotions or cleaning out the people who have no business being in your life.

Being a Pisces makes me very very susceptible to other people's emotions, feelings and pain. As such I can easily become overwhelmed by their emotions, sometimes even taking on their pain and sharing in it as if it were my own. As I've grown I've learned to block that ability/curse out but sometimes if I REALLY care about somebody, my guard slips. I will give untold number of chances for the person to not reciprocate my loving kindness and make excuses for their behavior. However, there comes a time when we all must set boundaries and see to it that everybody respects those boundaries and acts accordingly. If they do not, then they must go. Period. The END.

I am cleaning out my life of several people who no longer have any business being around me. I won't go into the details of what each person did and why they no longer deserve to be in my circle but suffice it to say, they've been removed. They might not even notice they've been removed, YET. But oh, when they notice they will TRY to come back but they shall find the house empty and the occupant gone.

I have asked GOD for forgiveness for any wrong I may have done them, I have asked GOD to assist me in forgiving them for any wrong they have done to me and I am moving on. I can not, will not tolerate disrespect of any type, be it of my person or of my time. I am no longer able to give a listening ear just because you are feeling down. I am no longer able to be a friend when you realize that nobody else is around. I am no longer able to give kind words and my time when you are not able or willing to reciprocate those things.

We live in an energy based world and there MUST be balance. We exchange energy all the time when we interact with people, going about our daily business, we leave our energy everywhere. When you interface with someone you are giving them energy and they receive it and give you energy back. It's supposed to be reciprocal but it isn't always. Some people are ENERGY VAMPIRES, all they do is TAKE energy. They do this because their own energy stores are so depleted, so lacking in substance, that they must TAKE TAKE TAKE and create CHAOS so that they may have even more energy available to restore their low stores.

But alas, I am on this trickery I am no longer going to allow ANYBODY to take energy from me without putting it back.

I am at peace with my decision and I know that my life will be better served surrounded by people who uplift me rather than people who bring me down.

The Celestine Prophecy

At the behest of a friend (an oh soooo handsome friend I might add) I read the Celestine Prophecy. I get what it was trying to accomplish in it's overly simplistic manner. Overall the book was ok. I do however, like the 4 personality dramas that they talked about in the story. One of them reminds me of my ex. He is an interrogator. This is the type of person that likes to ask you questions but their intention in doing so is to set you up so that you can be wrong and they can be right. They get to have that "aha" I caught you moment. While you are busy wondering wtf they are talking about? Then if that didn't work he'd turn to the Poor Me drama. This drama is characterized by playing the victim. So if he couldn't get my attention by interrogating me with 980 questions then it was, "nobody likes me, nobody understands me, my mama don't love me or whatever other nonsensical malarkey he could come up with. The point of the 4 types of dramas is to steal energy. This has a ring of truth to it because I would find myself feeling physically and emotionally drained after talking with him often times. See, the world is made of energy and we exchange energy between ourselves all the time. In a healthy interaction there is a balance of energy given and received. But when we are playing out these dramas, we are attempting to get our energy needs met by SUCKING all the energy from the other person. When I was with this person I was NOT myself. What I mean by that  is I took a lot more shit from him than I would have. I blame it on the pregnancy hormones. I also know that I was SUPPOSED to go through everything I did with him. I haven't worked out ALL the reasons why but I've worked out most of them, at least the ones that pertain to me and I am happy about that. I know that GOD brings people into our lives sometimes for a lifetime, sometimes for a season. I know I played a positive, pivotal role in his life and he played a very important role in my life as well because he blessed me with a wonderful gift. A son I never thought I'd have. I never thought I'd have any more children and I am REALLY enjoying doing the whole mommy thing all over again. If you're curious about what control drama I use, it would be the aloof control drama. This person is mysterious and keeps their cards close to their chest. They don't come after you, they wait for you to make the move and that is how they get their energy. This is me all day. I don't approach other people, for friendship, dates, small talk, etc. I am reserved and shy. I let you come to me. I mean you know my winning personality just SHINES anyway so you can't HELP but to wanna get to know me, so that's what usually happens, lol! But what's funny is that before I even read the book, my friend who recommended the book to me told me right off the bat which type I was and I literally laughed out loud cuz we haven't seen each other or been around each other in YEARS but he was spot on, lol. I know this blog post is kinda random and all over the place but, hey I got the notion to come write because I was watching Tamar and Vince and I had a lot of feelings about what I'm witnessing on this show. But before I could pass judgement on someone else I had to be able to look at myself and my last relationship and be honest with myself too ya know what I mean? Btw, I figured out how to stop him from siphoning off my energy. I had to do him like I did when I was a young girl and other points in my life. I have to NOT allow people to take my energy or give me stuff I don't want. I am good at blocking it too and I feel so much better and so much more energized and happy now. And because I feel good, good things continue to happen to me. Why is that? Because the Law of Attraction states, that which is like unto itself is drawn.

Peace yall.

Spell Casting

I saw a post on facebook that read: WORDS CAST SPELLS. THAT'S WHY IT'S CALLED SPELLING. WORDS ARE ENERGY USE WISELY.
And I could not agree more. Why do you think that wounds heal so much faster than something hurtful that someone said to you? We speak life and death with our tongues daily and sometimes we don't even realize it. Or we realize it when it's too late. There is this one particular person whom I have grown to abhor. Every time I speak with this person I feed off of their negative energy and my words, tone and manner are full to brimming with malice. I can tell the difference in myself and I DO NOT LIKE IT. I am aware keenly aware that we get the essence of what we think and since I am thinking how much I dislike this person and all of their mess and confusion, that is the reason I continue to get it. What's great though is that I am aware that I am doing it. So much so, that lately I've been able to stop myself, mid-thought or mid sentence. I can stop myself from SPELLING the heck outta this fool and thus bringing more unwanted to my own life. I love the Law of attraction because it is fair and it works the same way all the time for everybody. Well, I am going to practice SPELLING goodness and love and beautiful things instead of the dark, hateful, brooding fuckery that I KNOW I am also capeable of, lol! Here's to a great day today. I will be watching what spells I'm casting with my words today.

Peace