Tastykake Mini's

Today I opened my box of  Tastykake Minis chocolate swirly cupcakes. My mini win was to celebrate moving into my new home. I just checked the mailbox yesterday and I wanted to open them and do an unboxing video on YouTube but I was too tired.

Today, they were calling my name so I just HAD to open them. Let me start out by saying I didn't know what to expect because I'd never tasted any of Tastykake's products. The box contained 24 mini size cupcakes. In each package there are 3 cupcakes. I opened the package, took out a cupcake and popped it into my mouth. PURE DELICIOUSNESS! I was surprised at how moist and flavorful they were. They had JUST the right amount of creme in the middle and JUST the right amount of chocolate.

I received this product via Influenster to test however, my opinions are true. I absolutely LOVED the taste. They are in a convenient little package, perfect to put in your lunch or take with you on the go. Now that I've tasted them I will certainly purchase them in the future. I'm also interested to see what other items TastyKake's offers.

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Happy Eating! :)

Reflection

Wow, it's been a long time since I've posted on this blog. I'd forgotten my log in and everything, lol. I started this blog as a means to express myself but I never really used it. I've contemplated deleting it many times but never did. I'm happy about that because now I think I will  write more.

A lot has happened since the last time I wrote on this blog. The most traumatic and awful thing happened. My mother died. If you follow me on YouTube then you probably saw the video I put up where I was talking about it. It was so painful that I eventually made it private so it's not available anymore. Since that day my life has transformed. I've been so sad and yet good things have happened to me.

Right  now I feel like I'm at a cross roads because it's been a year since mom has passed and I feel like I've accomplished NOTHING. Yes I still stay home and take care of my toddler (like his father and I planned) and thats a BIG accomplishment, BUT I don't feel like I've done anything for NATI. It's almost like I don't know how to do anything WITHOUT my mother. I don't know if I can live without her. I don't know if I can survive without her. I don't know if I can work without her. I don't know if I can get a car without her or be happy without her. I just feel so lost. My soul is desolate. I am alive but I'm just existing. Even when I'm happy and laughing, inside I'm just sooooo fucking SAD.

I can't complain really, cuz GOD has been SOOOOOO good to me y'all! I have wanted for nothing and I haven't worked in 3 years! I don't get any money from the government either, but my father in Heaven ALWAYS looks out for me. I do have a boyfriend that I feel was sent from heaven. I love him so much. I never felt like I'd experience love again and here this man came into my life. I had given up on EVER being happy again after mom passed and yet he makes me happy. I can't say that he can fill the void my mom's passing left but he definitely makes me feel loved and more complete and more like myself, so that's a good thing. I'm even contemplating marrying him, something I'd given up on after dealing with my crazy ex.

I know this blog post is kinda all over the place but I just felt the need to come and put my feelings down on paper (virtual).

Later

Andre Walker & Natural Hair Products

Ok so Andre Walker is Oprah's hair stylist. In the natural hair community is in/famous for making a hair typing chart and making some interesting comments regarding natural hair, which I plan to adress shortly. First things first, to his credit Andre was one of the first to come out with a hair typing chart to sort of give you a guide to managaing your hair and figuring out what products work best with your hair texture. He put the chart in a hierarchical manner that ranged from Type 1 to Type 4. At the top of the list, was Type 1 hair, straight, no curl and ranged all the way to type 4 hair which was kinky or nappy. Ok, now that in and of it self is neither a good thing nor bad thing. It is up to interpretation. Now had it just ended with that it would have been all good but alas, it did not. Mr. Walker went on to say the following, (quoted directly from him in an Elle article) " I always recommend embracing your natural texture. Kinky hair can have limited styling options; that's the only hair type that I suggest altering with professional relaxing. " 

Then after all the backlash he went on to say the following in defense of his previous statements which further proves his delusional mind. "So when I say to embrace your natural texture, but consider relaxing kinky hair, am I contradicting myself? I don’t think so! You see, even relaxed hair can still be worn naturally. If you want a natural look, but find that your kinky hair is difficult to manage, breaks too easily, lacks shine and luster, and limits your preferred styling options, I say feel free to consider a mild chemical relaxer, sometimes called a texturizer, that eases your hair to a more manageable texture and allows you to Make Peace With Your Hair."

Now let's look at these oxymoronic statements. First we start off with I always recommend embracing your natural texture, but the next words out of your mouth are that your kinky hair is limited in styling options AND the icing on the cake is that this is THE ONLY hair type that should be relaxed. Ummmm, WTF? Really? And you don't get how that statement would make someone view you as the ANTITHESIS of someone who embraces KINKY/NAPPY hair? Really dude? How much formaldehyde have YOU been inhaling? Get out of here with that ish, seriously. Now the purposes of this post is not to go into the historical reasons behind why Black hair is such a touchy subject, but it is and if you are a Black woman then you KNOW that. So here you have this Black professional basically saying, if you have kinky hair you are out of luck, you can't do much with it and your best bet is to beat them napps into submission. I'm gonna let you marinate on that for a while and see how you feel about the statement. I'm sure you can guess how I take it.

Currently Mr. Walker has jumped on the opportunist train and decided that he is going to launch a product line DESIGNED for natural women! I'm serious y'all, you can't make this shit up. Here is somebody that no matter HOW you slice it does NOT like nappy hair, that is apparent but he is going to formulate some products to help you "DEAL and MANAGE" your hair. NEGRO PLEASE! Why in the nine hells would a natural nappy headed woman come to YOU for hair advice? She went natural to stay away from chemicals as much as possible and your advice is, "Oh sorry dear, you got THAT kinda hair, your best bet is to slap a relaxer on it!" Aww but the opportunist in you saw that for many of us, going natural was no passing fad, it is a lifestyle and a way we can embrace who we are. You also saw how we started using more natural products and becoming educated on what is going into the products we use on our hair and skin. You saw these other companies notice how we used shea butter, aloe vera, mango butter, coconut oil, olive oil, etc and they BROKE THEIR NECKS offering us products that highlighted things we were already using. So you thought, well hey, I'm knowledgeable in hair care, I can package some stuff and sell it to these women and make a fortune,

Well Mr. Walker you won't be getting a DIME of MY money. Going to you for hair care products to care for my lovely kinky, fine, straight, curly, coily mane would be like going to the slave master for advice on helping me embrace my BLACKNESS. Once again I say NEGRO PLEASE. You need to have a Reliant Stadium full of seats.

Boy bye!

Cleansing

The time has come for you to lip sync for your LIFE! lol! I kid, I kid. :)

The time has come for me to clean out my life once again. Just as we clean when the different seasons make an appearance, it's a good idea to clean out your life sometimes as well. Whether it's cleaning out your mind and letting go of old hurts, pains and emotions or cleaning out the people who have no business being in your life.

Being a Pisces makes me very very susceptible to other people's emotions, feelings and pain. As such I can easily become overwhelmed by their emotions, sometimes even taking on their pain and sharing in it as if it were my own. As I've grown I've learned to block that ability/curse out but sometimes if I REALLY care about somebody, my guard slips. I will give untold number of chances for the person to not reciprocate my loving kindness and make excuses for their behavior. However, there comes a time when we all must set boundaries and see to it that everybody respects those boundaries and acts accordingly. If they do not, then they must go. Period. The END.

I am cleaning out my life of several people who no longer have any business being around me. I won't go into the details of what each person did and why they no longer deserve to be in my circle but suffice it to say, they've been removed. They might not even notice they've been removed, YET. But oh, when they notice they will TRY to come back but they shall find the house empty and the occupant gone.

I have asked GOD for forgiveness for any wrong I may have done them, I have asked GOD to assist me in forgiving them for any wrong they have done to me and I am moving on. I can not, will not tolerate disrespect of any type, be it of my person or of my time. I am no longer able to give a listening ear just because you are feeling down. I am no longer able to be a friend when you realize that nobody else is around. I am no longer able to give kind words and my time when you are not able or willing to reciprocate those things.

We live in an energy based world and there MUST be balance. We exchange energy all the time when we interact with people, going about our daily business, we leave our energy everywhere. When you interface with someone you are giving them energy and they receive it and give you energy back. It's supposed to be reciprocal but it isn't always. Some people are ENERGY VAMPIRES, all they do is TAKE energy. They do this because their own energy stores are so depleted, so lacking in substance, that they must TAKE TAKE TAKE and create CHAOS so that they may have even more energy available to restore their low stores.

But alas, I am on this trickery I am no longer going to allow ANYBODY to take energy from me without putting it back.

I am at peace with my decision and I know that my life will be better served surrounded by people who uplift me rather than people who bring me down.

The Celestine Prophecy

At the behest of a friend (an oh soooo handsome friend I might add) I read the Celestine Prophecy. I get what it was trying to accomplish in it's overly simplistic manner. Overall the book was ok. I do however, like the 4 personality dramas that they talked about in the story. One of them reminds me of my ex. He is an interrogator. This is the type of person that likes to ask you questions but their intention in doing so is to set you up so that you can be wrong and they can be right. They get to have that "aha" I caught you moment. While you are busy wondering wtf they are talking about? Then if that didn't work he'd turn to the Poor Me drama. This drama is characterized by playing the victim. So if he couldn't get my attention by interrogating me with 980 questions then it was, "nobody likes me, nobody understands me, my mama don't love me or whatever other nonsensical malarkey he could come up with. The point of the 4 types of dramas is to steal energy. This has a ring of truth to it because I would find myself feeling physically and emotionally drained after talking with him often times. See, the world is made of energy and we exchange energy between ourselves all the time. In a healthy interaction there is a balance of energy given and received. But when we are playing out these dramas, we are attempting to get our energy needs met by SUCKING all the energy from the other person. When I was with this person I was NOT myself. What I mean by that  is I took a lot more shit from him than I would have. I blame it on the pregnancy hormones. I also know that I was SUPPOSED to go through everything I did with him. I haven't worked out ALL the reasons why but I've worked out most of them, at least the ones that pertain to me and I am happy about that. I know that GOD brings people into our lives sometimes for a lifetime, sometimes for a season. I know I played a positive, pivotal role in his life and he played a very important role in my life as well because he blessed me with a wonderful gift. A son I never thought I'd have. I never thought I'd have any more children and I am REALLY enjoying doing the whole mommy thing all over again. If you're curious about what control drama I use, it would be the aloof control drama. This person is mysterious and keeps their cards close to their chest. They don't come after you, they wait for you to make the move and that is how they get their energy. This is me all day. I don't approach other people, for friendship, dates, small talk, etc. I am reserved and shy. I let you come to me. I mean you know my winning personality just SHINES anyway so you can't HELP but to wanna get to know me, so that's what usually happens, lol! But what's funny is that before I even read the book, my friend who recommended the book to me told me right off the bat which type I was and I literally laughed out loud cuz we haven't seen each other or been around each other in YEARS but he was spot on, lol. I know this blog post is kinda random and all over the place but, hey I got the notion to come write because I was watching Tamar and Vince and I had a lot of feelings about what I'm witnessing on this show. But before I could pass judgement on someone else I had to be able to look at myself and my last relationship and be honest with myself too ya know what I mean? Btw, I figured out how to stop him from siphoning off my energy. I had to do him like I did when I was a young girl and other points in my life. I have to NOT allow people to take my energy or give me stuff I don't want. I am good at blocking it too and I feel so much better and so much more energized and happy now. And because I feel good, good things continue to happen to me. Why is that? Because the Law of Attraction states, that which is like unto itself is drawn.

Peace yall.

Spell Casting

I saw a post on facebook that read: WORDS CAST SPELLS. THAT'S WHY IT'S CALLED SPELLING. WORDS ARE ENERGY USE WISELY.
And I could not agree more. Why do you think that wounds heal so much faster than something hurtful that someone said to you? We speak life and death with our tongues daily and sometimes we don't even realize it. Or we realize it when it's too late. There is this one particular person whom I have grown to abhor. Every time I speak with this person I feed off of their negative energy and my words, tone and manner are full to brimming with malice. I can tell the difference in myself and I DO NOT LIKE IT. I am aware keenly aware that we get the essence of what we think and since I am thinking how much I dislike this person and all of their mess and confusion, that is the reason I continue to get it. What's great though is that I am aware that I am doing it. So much so, that lately I've been able to stop myself, mid-thought or mid sentence. I can stop myself from SPELLING the heck outta this fool and thus bringing more unwanted to my own life. I love the Law of attraction because it is fair and it works the same way all the time for everybody. Well, I am going to practice SPELLING goodness and love and beautiful things instead of the dark, hateful, brooding fuckery that I KNOW I am also capeable of, lol! Here's to a great day today. I will be watching what spells I'm casting with my words today.

Peace